Wow it feels so weird to be blogging again. Initially logged into xanga to pick up where i left of, then saw how much a span of one year (!) has done to me. Needed to start fresh - if that's even possible.
If i were to take a step back and view my life right now, i think i'm doing alright. Made through my degree with no hiccups, secured a job (albeit a little too early for comfort but hey i'm not complaining), and so far making it through the first 6 months of financial independence alive. I use the term financial independence loosely - i still am living under mama's roof and my makan/minum/tidur (and the occasional credit card statement :P) are being taken care of them fully, but at least now i know i can afford to buy that nice top from Zara or go out for a night about town without having to burden them any more than i already am.
"AWAK INGAT KITA KAT WARD NI JAGA KAMBING KE?"
And if the burden of the job is not enough to make you go crazy, there's the issue of the non-existent love life :) LOVE is very vague to me right now. I love my family and friends to death, but i just cannot picture myself being IN love with anyone. My two ex boyfriends were perfect examples of how i was never able to commit myself fully and backing out of both when i did was the best thing i could have done to avoid being selfish. Who knew love could be so complicated? Mama and aunty only talk about men now when we have our daily chats. What's the update with A, did B call, when are you going to go out with C again, why don't you give D a chance? The pinnacle of it all was when mama tried to set me up with one of my newly single cousins at a "family brunch" which involved ONLY his family and mine. Dude.....
But i guess i'm doing alright. Hey i could have it worse, right?
I'm taking life one day at a time, tackling work and love as best as i humanly can. In the mean time, i turn to leather for affection.
Preferably lambskin.
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