Jiwa Rasa Gelora

Been having a rough couple of weeks lately.. emotional overdrive with what's been going on in the love life (or lack thereof) and also stress at work causing a lot of sleepless nights and in turn exhaustion. Got a lot of comments from friends and strangers alike that I've lost weight (I haven't) and that would usually leave me elated but somehow this time around it made me... sad, somehow? Because i know it comes from a place of darkness. I had a patient ask me if i wasn't feeling well, that he could "see it in my eyes". Probably just a kepoh uncle speaking out of context but it's little things like these that really get to me lately and that just sucks. Granted, things are not bad, i'm not suffering in limbo between life and death and there are other people in the world who have bigger issues but it does not mean that this little problem of mine doesn't affect me, and too bad so sad i'm going to wallow in self pity. Heh heh heh..

I am intelligent, I am beautiful, and I am strong willed. If it comes to a point where that becomes a liability to anyone and any situation, so be it. They probably didn't deserve me in the first place.